some thoughts and reflection

the passing away of a friend kind of made me realised some things. One day you might be the wealthiest person in the world but the next day everything is still gonna turn into dust. when I say wealth, I don just mean money or fame but everything that is possible such as love, family, health and friendship.

we have been constantly reminded that we must live our lives to the fullest and not live in regret. to cherish your friends, family, love and even yourself and not take them for granted. So much has been told but how many off us can really practise what we preached. most of time people tend to pass it off that we'll find time later, but apparent, later will never come. Procrastination.

David has taught me 3 things about life.
We need to take care of ourselves and to look after our own health. The health of our family and friends and loved ones is paramount too. One has to take good care of your body in order to stay healthy so as not to make ur loved ones worried about you. To also be healthy so that you would have the strength to look after the people around you. to be healthy so as to be able to complete whatever dreams that you have. To be healthy to simply enjoy life.

My dear once mentioned to me that Life is like a journey on a train. the pasengers on board are akin to the friends who will be with you on board this train. At this moment, they may be with you onboard, but you never know when their journey with you will stop. sometimes their journey will terminate while you are still continuing your own journey, sometimes they will alight to board another train and embark on their own journey. How apt. However, there are times that we can choose to alight our own journey and choose to board on another train just to catch up with the passengers your once travelled with. Although this might deviate you from your original route to your destination, perhaps we shouldn't even be so obsessed with getting to our destination so eagerly in the first place. So what exactly have I learn from this friend of mine? The ans is simple, that is to cherish the passengers who once travelled with you. Give them a short visit if they have already board on another train. Perhaps you could say you are the captain of your own train and u could jolly well decide the route for yourself. travel with them once more even if it's just a short journey, reminisce on the journey we once had together. Be it a good or a bad experience, catch up on one another before our journey suddenly terminate. Reminisce the days we once had.

sometimes, the initial journey might not be a good experience, catching up with them later might proved to be a whole new experience and might shed new light to how we once judge them. maybe it has taught me to be more forgiving to some extent? to not be so myopic in some ways and to give others a chance to prove us wrong.

Lastly, your family is always there to give you relentless support no matter what you are going through. Their love for us is so fundamental and instinctive that there's no reason why. Yet we can be so introvert with our feelings for them that it might seem that we took them for granted. Though we all noe that we shouldn't take them for granted and we should love them like they always shower us with love and care, again we don explicitly tell them that we do. Lesson from tuesday with morrie: love each other or perish.

Aurora (Northern Lights)

this is also damn chio.... haha... the green light is so bright. illuminating the sky!! you can even see the stars shifting...

Aurora

I think aurora are truly fascinating and amazing.... anyone noe the mechanism behind it? haha.. it's actually quatum physics. charge particles from the sun arriving at the earth's atmosphere. after getting excited, light energy is given off. check it out from wiki.

hahaa.... emo? I hope i'm not.....

hmm hmm
donoe what wrong we me today... made us so weird today....
all my fault yah....
so sorrry.... donoe why also....
it's weird that I suddenly had such strange feelings

I'm really apologetic abt it.
I promise I wont make ppl ard me upset again?
hahaha.... yah... just hope to become the familiar clown
that I used to be for my frens,
to bring them laughter and joy again.
hiaz

oh wells!!! friday's coming!!! yipppieee hahhaaa

hmm maybe I shdnt think so much too... hahhahaa

cheers!! tml will be a better day!!!

sick but blessed

why do I fall sick so easily nowadays??
hahaha... sian.
anyways I'm still very blessed...... blessed in many ways...
got the scrapbook.
it's just too sweet le....
thanks....

cough cough...
am to lazy to do anything tonite.
no mugging.... think i'm goin to sleep at 1030pm le.
I'll be good tonight... sleep and rest well for friday.... ahem ahem....
too much phlegm le... hahahaa

Way back into Love.........

Various Artists Way Back into Love Lyrics

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need `em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Ohhhhh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light

Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

whao... smashing great time!

whao... had such a smashing great time today!!! happy de!!! hahaha.. thank you!!

Hwa Chong MAF

Attended Hwa Chong's annual MAF celebration!!!

it's so nostalgic to go back for MAF. Where all the seniors, old boys and girls and teachers and staff gather at the Central Plaza. There were performances but the highlight of Hwa Chong's MAF will always be the GRAND LIGHT UP!!!!


Particular meaningful for the ex-councillors of Hwa Chong, it's always an event that cannot be missed.... well the hardwork in putting the lantern web, the centre piece, the fountain, the city gates!! All this are a indispensable part of MAF.


Not to forget Coucillors leading the Hwa Chong college songs, melodies that are so easy to sing to and the lyrics to meaningful and apt. The MAF celebration will never be complete without the mass dance session where all the old boys and girls all figuring very hard to recap the dance steps while the ex-councillors so easily pick up the steps again. together with the chanting of the dance commands and cheering in between, everyone all seem to be like schooling young adults once again!!! tt's the pride of being a hwa chong councillor bah.... hahaha.... but I'm sure the current and old students had great fun too!!! MAF's a good time for classes to have reunion or something rite.

let the picture do the talking.......

This year, the centrepiece is a dragon. Quite a nice piece of work I must say. can u believe it! all these decoration done by a council strength of 40 plus people. INCREDIBLE. but we all did it. Picture of mass dance session.



the only people from 29th who went back! tt's the city gate aka cheng men!




us again


and us again with mr chiam


I think the fountain is nice too.

video of us singing one hua chu de ge......

sickness

had so much thoughts when I wanted to write about this entry especially when I was on the bus, there was so much I wanted to say. but as here I am, settled down at home, I simply don't know how to begin this story. I'm feeling so lost now...

last year december, contacted an old fren of mine regarding this attendance to a long awaited gathering. however, he kindly down our offer as he was on medication and he just had an operation. Not willing to let me noe wat his illness was, I was also afraid to probe further. All I did was to hope he would recover soon and then we would meet again though I had already suspected something serious might had cropped up but I had no moral courage to find out more or maybe because I simple couldnt be bothered? I donoe.....

Then during this vacation, had met up with a few frens of mine from sch days As we were talking about the good old times, we realised this fren of mine have been missing in action. Naturally, we were curious and we were concern. Only till today that I found out from another fren that he happened to be quite seriously ill. Earlier in december he had an operation on his colon to remove the cancer. and now, he had been hospitalised because the cancer cell has spread and he had to have another operation.

All this while he had been so critically ill and he did not even want to trouble us by letting us noe of his condition. that is just so much like his character. strong and considerate.... not wanting to trouble others and to suffer all this on his own. Now, I don even noe if he would want us to know of his condition because the fact that he had hid all this from us, he must have felt that he shouldnt let us know. How is it possible for someone to know of this and act indifferent? yet, we have to respect his decision.

When I know of this, I was totally shocked. I totally donoe how to react.... but now when I'm typing.... tears just start to flow down uncontrollably... Recently I had fallen sick as well. being down with flu, we lament the way we cant find the energy to do anything. Even such a small flu can seem so unbearable to me. What about wat my fren is going thru rite now? I cannot imagine.

But now, even when I noe of this, there's nothing I can do! I felt so hopeless to do anything for this ex team mate of mine. I hate myself for being so useless, even for feeling so hopeless too. Right! there is still hope. Whatever it is, please give him the strength to undergo his treatment, and to be the same old healthy person he should be. bless him.

I hate the way I simply don cherish the things and people ard me. that I had taken them for granted, expecting that they will always be there. That is simply so UNTRUE! When we are so caught up with our own individual lives, we have failed to stopped and catch up with other people around us. that includes our parents, our families, our friends and even ourselves. As we are busy mugging, chasing skirts, and when we are having the greatest time of our lives, don forget about those who are deprived of such chance. The reason why you are having such great time is because of the people around you. then why cant we be there when a fren needs a spiritual support?

It saddens me to know that life can be so vulnerable, There so little we can do.... yet there's also so much for us to do if we want to. So little that I can offered to help, to ease the pain for him, to make him recover. Yet if we want to, we can start from now, to treat everyone the best that they shd deserve, to not take them for granted, and to make them loved. Especially loved by you. I'm bad at expressing my emotions, but I must say I love my family, all my frens and you my dearest fren.... these may sound hypocritically but at this point of time, this is really how I feel.

this entry may be incoherent and contains many error. just let it be, because it the first draft. reading and rewriting would make it meaningless.

liu ling ling at AMK ge tai

din noe tt the jacky wu's favourite "把我的皮箱拿来，把我的皮鞋擦黑" comes from this indian song. Anyway liu ling ling was quite funnnie during the the ge tai.

liu ling ling sings ji lang ji pua

the liu ling ling version of ji lang ji pua.... very powerful voice!

One Half - 881 Duet Version

the theme songs from 881. think the melody compliments the movie.

The 7th month Fan Jian Ritual...

it's the least I would expect to complete my 7th month fan jian ritual with my parents!!! supposedly wanted to jio any fan jian ppl to watch kor dai and then followed by the movie 881, in the end, yesterday my mum jioed me to watched kor dai at AMK. So I suggested to watched the movie 881 after tt. hahaha... never did I expect an instant agreement from her.

so is was wat happened... we waited for papa to come home, had our dinner and set off to AMK to watch kor dai (ge tai) hosted by liu ling ling (aka 600). For ur information, liu ling ling's the fat auntie ling and the kor dai xian gu from 881. AMK was swarming with ppl and we could hardly get to watch the ge tai performance.....

anyway tt's liu ling ling on the left and a msian singer on the rite..... hot de loh... hahahaa no wonder so many uncle (excluding myself) like to watch kor dai... anyway the pic looks really small.

this picture taken secretly.... hahaaha... tt's the back view of my parents....

so let's talk abt 881 the movie. On the whole I really think it's quite good movie, considering tt it's a local production. it's quite close to our hearts. inspired by the ge tai spirit of late mr chen jin lang... a veteran ge tai singer.... the movie talks abt how the papaya sisters strive to carve a niche in the ge tai industry and how little papaya aka xiao mu gua chose to spend every bit of her energy on stage, performing for the ppl and the good brothers. the story is quite predictable but the filming style is rather unique. a good mixture of tragedy and comedy too. I really would recommend ppl to watch this local hokkien musical cos the music is really quite nice!

Btw my parents quite enjoyed the movie becos of the songs. liu ling ling's singing also quite power....

on a side note I think liu ling ling and mindee's (xiao mu gua) acting skills are quite impressive. certain parts of the movie are actually quite touching. you have to see it yourself to noe wat i'm talking abt.

周星馳 - 少林足球被剪掉的一段！保證超爆笑！

wahahahha... this is even funnier lah.... omg.. the little guy is the barber from kung fu hustle lah.... hahahaa....

周星驰唐伯虎点秋香中精彩片段：小强篇

at first I was looking for the stephen chow clip abt "..犹如涛涛江水，源源不绝..." but stumble upon this other classic... hahaha.. damn funnie lah... OH MY tian.... xiao qiang! xiao qiang!

Oweek07 Comm - 戀愛ING (Love-ing)

haahhaaa.... the oweek comm's video.... quite cute lah

my niece strikes back....

hohohoho..... sister came back for dinner on sunday nite.... hahaha.. got to see my niece again.....

so sad tt she doesnt recognise me.... but my mum had a really good time playing with her.....hahhahaa..... oh... did I mention tt she had a new hairstyle too???hahaha she's botak now!!! damn funnie... but 是可爱的咯！hahhaa....

too bad I din take a picture of her smiling... she's very selective abt smiling.... so young but so dao. she onli smile to her mum and my mum.... hahahaa

hahaha.. she has the "wat are u doing ?" face loh.... hahaha

an awesome nite....

I've always been called a xiao di.... and living my 20 plus years like a little boy.... but tt doesnt change the fact that age has indeed caught up with me.... now tt i'm already 22, I wonder how different am i as I was in secondary sch.

it's been a year since we last met up to celebrate mrs teng's bdae and it's good to see almost everyone again at guofeng's house. it as nice and cosy kinda feeling where everyone gathered ard the bbq pit to do some good time catching up. updating one another of their love lives, sch lives and their experience when they are overseas. you noe you just feel at ease and comfortable when I tok to them. and that these are the people whom you can really open up to and they will always listen to you. I never tot that I would miss each and everyone of them so much.... tt's abit gay to say tt but.... I really do.... memories of the secondary sch days kept flooding my mind.

picture of us last year celebrating teng's bdae.

remembered the times we took part in micromouse competition.... the treat by fookm at seoul gardens..... the times when we donoe where to go and end up at zhiyang or fulun's house... and doing project at guofeng's house.... and of course the collective effort of everyone when we participated in talent time!!! wah... everything is just so mind blowing!!!......

it's great to hear from these brothers of mine again. everyone looks very much the same as before and i'm glad to see that all of them are doin well both academically and in relationships. I must say I feel so happy for them!!!

must really thank guofeng and his family for generously preparing the bbq food and letting us visit his house. the food taste great but our bbq skills suck.

lastly, I wish the brothers all the best and hope they stay safe and healthy for our next gathering.... i'll be expecting a full attendance.....

and so the motto for our class goes: "Always strike 4D!" hahhahaa.... till we meet again!!!

surrounding the pit...

Goo Goo Dolls - Before It's Too Late

I love the movie..... the song is damn nice too.....

I wander through fiction
To look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
And I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

Hold on before it’s too late
Until we leave this behind
Don’t fall, just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would say:
A life you don’t live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real ‘til it’s gone

Hold on before it’s too late
Until we leave this behind
Don’t fall, just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
And love ‘til you feel it
It’s all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real ‘til it’s gone

Hold on before it’s too late
Until we leave this behind
Don’t fall, just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

Hold on before it’s too late
Until we leave this behind
Don’t fall, just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

It’s all that we need in our lives

It’s all that I need in my life

榴莲 榴莲 包红肉

gosh... bought durian from jurong west today.... the durian is simply BEST!!!! 猫山王榴莲 1kg 10dollars.... wah.... 2 durian 30 dollar.... but it's damn nice!!!! bittersweet..... and fleshy.... hahaa

shit... now my throat abit sore liao... pu zhua...... hahahhaa.. heaty loh.....

in view of the today's GST hike, notice that there are many hawkers and shop manipulating this GST hike to their advantage..... taking this opportunity to increase their price. disgusting merchants.... last time, one popiah cost 1 dollar... and now..... it cost 1.20.... i'm sure the 20 cents made up the 2% increase in GST loh....

lastly, celebrated kenny's birthday at downtown east..... it most be at downtown east again.... so the alpha detachment reunite!!! it's been so long since we met up.

look.... the baby shaking leg.....

wahaha..... sunday went to ikea with mum, my sis and her baby daughter to shop for a lazy chair to put in my bedroom.... so this is wat i'm contemplating to purchase.... cool man.... and it can recline backward.... costing at 165 buck... I think it's quite a good deal if u are thinking of getting a recliner chair... it's not exactly a recliner but.... it serves like one.... wat to do... a real leather recliner chair is easily 700+ dollars... at least this one is leather too...... must get it before the GST rise.... hahaha.... cheapo hor.... tt means by saturday loh....



cool ah... can spend a lazy sunday afternoon... kio kar... read a book... and the fall asleep and basking in the warmth of the afternoon sun....











talking abt kio kar... aka 跷脚 my little niece ah... she was lying in her pram and kio her kar on the bar across the pram ah.... like damn shiok lah... too bad nv take picture.. hahahaa... the passersby commented " eh u see that baby.... shake leg lah......" hahaha sooo cute!!! hmmm I must relak ah.. sounded abit gay.. .wahahahaa
but she's really cute..... beyond words.........



see my baby niece and my sis... wat resemblance of my sis!!!! hahaha.... sooo kawaii!!! anyway... picture taken at Ivins' a peranakan restaurant at bukit timah to celebrate fathers' day..... ironically we never take picture with dad...

sick of work

sick of all the politics at work..... why cant ppl work harmoniosly like other people...... why cant the pay be higher..... and why cant we have OT pay.....

so fed up......

hahahhahaa.... but i'm so getting numb and used to it already......

a busy week

It was a busy and hectic week.... nonetheless, it was still a fulfilling one.. Met up with the fellow SISPEC warriors for dinner at newton hawker. though the turn up was quite pathetic, we did have an enjoyable meal.

worked for garskin this week too... hahahaha and as usual the colleagues are so fun to worked with. there's also a couple of new faces.... I just hope that there's chance for us to meet up some day again.... hahaha.... supper anyone?

in the end cos jimmy had a nose operation so shiping had to stand in as our "boss"... haha







of course and there's my colleague at maleluca!!! kashmini and stella..... hahaha... the funny "gal frens" bimbo.....





Thursday nite went to support miss tan siqian at butter factory organised by her hall. it was a total flop man... we could easily be the onli non eusoffians ard.... hahahhaa.... not to mention that the number of eusoff hall ppl amount to less than 25? haahaaa... crap.....






































our kawaii 招财猫pose..... hahhaaha









and the the handphone advertisement pose....
帅!!!





then, saturday had 02s23 class gathering organised by aili and jinn yang... it's been a year since we last had a class gathering... and too bad onli 11 ppl turn up.... well kinda expected cos there's always a problem with the attendance ever since jc days... hahaha... anyways everyone looks almost the same except for some who lose weight while others gain abit of weight... hahaha... oh yah.. congrats to yili who's like commencing her working career soon.... hahhaa i'm sure she'll cope well in the working society.... jiayou bah... very soon all of us will be working too. I cant help but think abt what wat working life for me will be like?


lastly, today met up with the terra og ppl.... hahahaha.. had quite a good time at kbox.... though abit expensive ah..... and the ppl who turn up for kbox were......

Jane Zhang -- Loving You (張靚穎 海豚音)

some of u might have seen this... but she's really power lah...

OK Go - Here It Goes Again

this music video is quite cool eh? watched it from mtv channel.

gosh....

my gosh.... this is really my first time blogging..... after a fail attempt to blog at friendster....

hahahaha.... this is just sooo weird. I feel like i'm just talking to myself. ok... so how do I post youtube videos? and tagboard?